Purpose

Here we are, human:

We are isolated, imprisoned, in our skulls.

We build tunnels and bridges and airplanes out of music and words and art.

There is joy in this construction.

But it is not their purpose.

All of these require a soft place to land.

A crew to welcome us home.

Elsewise we hit impenetrable rock, drown in the sea, crash land.

Alone, we perish.

We don’t expect to be welcome everywhere, or even many places.

Sometimes our construction is faulty. Inelegant. Incomplete. Lacking. Doesn’t meet code requirements.

Sometimes our maps are faulty. We stumble in the dark; our notes are sirens; our phrases are flashlights, our pictures are beacons.

We keep trying.

We meet rock and sea and air.

We despair.

We keep trying.

We emerge victorious, we cross the infinite, we land softly.

Our crew welcomes us home.

And still we are alone.

Our tunnels and bridges and airplanes are temporary; they crumble.

Our music and words and art cannot carry the fullness of ourselves.

We cannot negate the isolation of the self.

We cannot share our homes.

Here we are, human:

Still, we keep building.

Still, we welcome you home.

Goals

I'm still trying to figure out exactly how I want to use the three platforms I'm now active on. It's a lot to think about and I probably won't settle on an answer until 2019, but in the meantime I thought I'd set up some goals here. I've participated in a "rebelcaptain icebergs" post that's supposed to be on Sundays and thought I might do something similar here but in a more general context. 

Tentatively, I'm strongly considering setting up my main base of operations here, while remaining active on tumblr and pillowfort to support fandom across these 3 platforms, with the intent of reblogging on tumblr and reblogging/commenting on pillowfort. I also want to learn how to cross post to tumblr, I think you can do that here? However, this could change as I learn my way around Dreamwidth and Pillowfort. 

Goals:

1. Complete and post the next installment of the group project rebelcaptain food travel AU. | due Sunday, December 16
2. Reread and comment on all the fic in the rebelcaptain food travel AU.* | due Sunday, December 21
3. Begin early drafts of fandom engagement post.
   • I have been thinking about this for months, possibly over a year, tbh. The poem(?) I just published is a more abstract, truncated version of what I want to say and what I've been thinking about -- well, for years to be quite honest. I studied Creative Writing in college and my thoughts on this matter run deep. But it's very nuanced and I want to be careful to get it right, so it may take awhile. I thought since I'm somewhat starting fresh on two platforms, it'd be as good a time as any to explore and express my thoughts here. None of the discourse I've seen on my tumblr dash regarding comment culture ever truly encapsulated everything I felt pertinent so it would be a very thorough post (that I also intend to have beta'ed). | due ???
4. Construct plan for regular ~Fan Work Rec Friday | Due January 2019
   • yikes, what a clumsy title, I know. My original title was going to be Fic Rec Friday, but in light of recent events, I want to be inclusive of all forms of fan expression). This plan started back in the spring, when I struggled with engagement on my own work and wanted to recognize other content creators who are fabulously talented but get less exposure, and with real life stuff I haven't had a chance to plan and execute this, but again with a new platform, real life stuff calming down, and a new year, I'm excited to get to work on this. 
5. Write, of course!
   • Learning Curve, my May 4th Exchange Fic, is embarrasingly over due. I have one chapter left. | due mid January 2019
   • How to Lose a Spy in 10 Days -- even more embarrassingly, this is my fic from the rom com challenge that kicked off in June 2017. I finally posted chapter 1 last, idk, February? And I haven't touched it.
   • I have plenty of other projects in the works but the 3 mentioned here are my top priorities.

*Generally, as a rule, I comment on every fic that I finish reading. However in this particular instance, since I was busy planning a wedding and going on my honeymoon, and I had the deadline of writing my chapter coming up, I read these in a rush and didn't comment. I enjoyed them! But I promise that I plan on leaving proper comments.